update of myself :))

It's been a while :)) i finished the whole two semesters in CNU. Now that summer is coming I feel kind of  vague especially I have to make decisions regarding school. I am planning to take summer classes to cope up some subjects for the next semester. I still entrust everything to God for i know everything will turn out fine. No more worries and doubts. I shall keep the FAITH. ^_^ CONTENTMENT and PATIENCE are the two vital things I need to work on this year. 'Til next time :)))

7 days to go before Christmas. This year has been a struggling and one of the most tiring year in my whole existence. Despite of that, it has also been a year full of blessings and realizations. I just want to take this opportunity to thank my parents and sisters for not giving up on me for the fact that I have the most complicated and rebellious attitude among my siblings. And most of all, I want to give all the glory and honor to my Lord, Savior, Provider, ---Jesus Christ. To my weakest and lowest point, He's been there. Thanks to my friends as well for the laughs and memories we shared together. This is it for today.

making them happen--- the crisis

I want to finish my college degree, land on a stable job preferably abroad. One day I'll take my parents abroad and work so hard so that I can provide them a comfortable and eased life. I vision of donating instruments to our church and supporting financially for its expansion. But beyond this dreams is a heart that is sometimes discouraged and tired. As of the moment I still find it difficult to be more diligent in school 'cause for all we know through education, better life can be attained. I know that I am blessed with good people and family around me but there's just this feeling of emptiness and confusion inside that consumes me over and over again. Confronted with various responsibilities, I am weakened. Whenever I am sad or down I am looking for this undefined outlet just for me not to burn out. I tried listening to music on my phone or simply by sleeping but it doesn't work for me anymore. I know I don't have any right to complain. As I am always reminded "you are blessed compared to others", but a question lefts me hanging. "If I am truly blessed, why am in the midst of confusion and constantly battling with myself?" But in the end, I leave it all to God. It is only Him who ultimately knows everything and can fix this broken freakin unstable emotions and stubborn thinking of mine. I hope this post will help as well. ;(

firstly

Hi. I am janina christine amarila. 18 years old. I use simple words whenever i write or speak English. Since it is not our medium of speaking here in Philippines, i  usually find it hard to understand deep words. Anyways, right now, I am still in the process of making adjustments and learning how to make my blog better in the sense that i would be satisfied on how it looks. That would be all for now. So, that's it. :)